...I don't know what's wrong with me...

Ever since I started my transition, there are these moments where I feel so small, like a little girl again. It’s embarrassing and confusing, because it doesn’t fit who I’m trying to be now. Lately, I’ve been thinking about...discipline from someone else, maybe as some kind of role-play, but the idea scares me too. Am I really okay with this? What does it mean if I am? ...