A Small Misstep...

I've been trying so hard to be the perfect caregiver... You know how it is when you're in that role, everything feels like it matters... Even something as small as leaving a mess for later can feel like such a letdown. I was told specifically not to eat any of those chocolates... But one day, my hands were just reaching out without thinking, and before I knew it, the whole box was empty. It wasn't even about hunger or needing something sweet... Just an impulse, really. Now every time I look at that spot on the counter where they used to sit, there's this guilt settling in my stomach like a stone. I try to make up for it by being extra careful with other things... But sometimes you can't help but feel like such a disappointment, even when you're trying your best...