A Secret I've Kept for Years

I never thought I'd be confessing this as a high school teacher turned Mommy figure. Last year, after my divorce, I found myself drawn to the idea of playing Mommy to an adult man in his twenties. It was all very consensual and private, but it felt so wrong, especially with me being his former student's teacher just years ago. We were both careful and respectful, but sometimes looking at him brought back memories of my ex, making everything bittersweet. Now that I'm a mom to my own little girl, this side of me feels like a part of my past, though I wonder if it ever truly goes away.