A Hidden Secret

I recently discovered that I have a deep-seated kink for DDLG scenarios. It's been overwhelming to confront this part of myself, but the truth is undeniable. During a particularly stressful day at work, I found myself fantasizing about being in an age-play dynamic with someone much older and wiser than me, playing out scenes that involved strict discipline followed by intimate tenderness. The idea of submitting completely, even to the point of physical punishment like spanking or caning (yes, caning), was oddly thrilling. Yet, admitting this makes me feel both excited and ashamed. I'm not sure how to proceed.