Confused and Seeking Comfort

I've been feeling so lost lately, you know? Like I'm floating away from everything. It started a few weeks back when I agreed to try being a little with my partner, Alex. At first it was just cute games and playful teasing. But then... well, it became something deeper. There's this part of me that really craves the guidance and support in these moments. Being taken care of feels so grounding. I'm not sure if it's because I need to feel safe or if there's some deep down insecurity at play here. Maybe both? It doesn't make sense, right? Like, why would a grown person suddenly want to regress like this? Yet every time we get into the little space and he takes charge, it feels so freeing. His instructions are so clear and comforting. But then there's also moments of doubt. When I'm alone or after these sessions, I feel a bit lost again. Wondering if it's all just a fantasy or if there could be something real here. Sometimes I even fear that others might think I'm broken for needing this kind of connection. That sounds silly though, doesn't it? So yeah, I don't know where this is going or what to make of these feelings and needs. Am I the only one who feels this way? What's healthy here and what isn't? Just... I need some reassurance or advice if you can give it.