A Secret From Behind The Counter

I've always been the responsible one at work, the Mommy figure for my colleagues. No matter how stressed out they were with their personal lives, I was there to comfort them and help them through tough times. But lately, something has changed inside me. I found myself in a situation that's hard to admit. It all started when a younger coworker of mine came to me feeling overwhelmed by the pressure at work. We had been friends for years, and he trusted me with his troubles more than anyone else. One day, while we were alone behind the closed checkout counter, I suddenly felt an urge I couldn't resist. Without thinking much about it, I disciplined him as if he was a child who needed to be taught a lesson. It was a shocking moment of powerplay that surprised both of us. He didn't push back or complain; instead, there was a mutual understanding and acceptance between us. The intensity of the situation left me feeling ashamed afterward, what was I thinking? This isn’t something we should ever talk about at work, but it's eating away at me. It’s hard to believe I crossed that line and acted out in such an unexpected way.