Late Night Loneliness

I'm just a grad student trying to make it through my thesis, but tonight I found myself feeling so alone. I started playing with a toy from my kink stash and before I knew it, I was crying into my pillow, wishing someone else was there to share this moment with me. It's not like I haven't had partners in the past or even now, but I'm starting to think maybe what I really need is more than just sex. Is it weird that I want a dominant partner who understands my needs and can make me feel less isolated? What should I do?