...I'm Not Who I Thought I Was...

...It's been years since I first joined the military community. As a spouse, you meet all sorts of people and make friends with folks who understand your unique lifestyle. Recently, though, I've found myself drawn to something that makes me feel ashamed and confused... I started exploring little-space dynamics and even tried on some caregiver roles... It felt so strange, yet oddly comforting when my partner took control in a way that reminded me of childhood, but only in play. We're both adults, 18+, married with kids already, but there's something about stepping into those pretend roles that makes the discipline feel real and the cuddling feel like protection... I'm not sure if this is just a phase or part of who I've always been but couldn't admit to myself before now. Sometimes I worry my kids will find out somehow, even though we're careful, and what they'll think when they're older and see this...