doctor's dirty little secret

ive been seeing this one patient for a while now and its not really a physical condition that brings them to me but more of an emotional thing. they always seem so lost and i kind of started feeling bad for em. over time we just got close talking through all their issues. turns out the real issue is something else, im starting to feel this weird connection with em too. its not like i dont have feelings or anything, but there's just something about them that makes me wanna take care of them, treat them like a kid even though theyre definitely an adult. i know its wrong, it started as just comforting and listening but now we play these games where i act all in charge and stuff and they kind of go along with being treated like a little one...i dont think they realize how far ive gone with this but im so turned on by taking control and having them follow my orders. sometimes we end up in these spaces where everything feels real, like hes actually younger or something. it makes me feel powerful and wanted in ways i never expected from my job. the way he looks at me when hes pretending to be all dependent...i just cant get enough of him like this. but im terrified its gonna come out somehow and ruin everything ive built with them as a patient, not to mention my whole career. im scared too that once they realize how much i've pushed this itll backfire and destroy what little trust we have left