The Secret Discipline Session

I never thought I'd find myself in this kind of situation... It all started when my best friend introduced me to the world of kink and BDSM... She had been exploring it for a while, and she convinced me to try something new one night. We agreed on a light session with no real commitment or expectations... That night turned out to be more intense than I could have imagined. She was into some serious role-play and discipline, things that felt so far from my comfort zone but strangely exhilarating... I ended up agreeing to a scenario where she was in control, acting as my domineering partner for the evening... It wasn't just about the physical sensations though, it was more about the emotional intensity of surrendering control. We had an understanding that this would stay private between us, and we agreed on safe words... But there were moments when I felt like I couldn't get enough, no matter how hard I tried to fight against my own desires... Afterwards, things became complicated. She hinted at wanting more regular sessions but also wanted to keep our relationship as just friends with benefits. It's been a struggle ever since, wondering if what we have is real or if it's all just a game...