A Recent Realization

I've been dating my partner for almost three years now. We met through a friend and immediately clicked on many levels. I've always enjoyed the dynamics of power exchange in relationships, but until recently, I never really considered myself someone who would engage in DDLG or kink play beyond some light role-playing. However, over the last few months, my desires have shifted unexpectedly. It started with a particularly stressful week at work where everything seemed to go wrong. I found solace in watching videos and reading stories about adult babies, age-play, and care-taking scenarios. Initially, it was purely voyeuristic, nothing more than a means of escapism from the pressures of daily life. But as time passed, those fantasies became more vivid and frequent. One night, after another argument with my partner (not related to kink play), I suddenly found myself thinking about how much I would enjoy being treated like a child in that moment, coddled, disciplined, but ultimately cared for. It was as if all the built-up stress and frustrations of adulthood evaporated at that thought. I'm not sure when exactly it crossed over from fantasy to reality in my mind, I think it was during a particularly intense session where I felt like nothing else mattered except pleasing her. That's when the pieces fell into place for me. It wasn't just about dominance and submission anymore; there was an element of regression, of being nurtured. Now here I am, admitting to myself that I want more than just the occasional fantasy, I crave a deeper connection where my partner takes on a caregiver role while I embrace the dynamic of a child. There's something incredibly freeing in this new understanding of myself, but also overwhelming due to the intensity and clarity of these desires. It feels strange yet right. It's early days and we haven't officially talked about it, so this is just me figuring out where to go from here.