Weekends Aren't Enough

I never thought I'd be writing this, but something's been gnawing at me lately. You see, my weekdays are filled with meetings and emails, all the usual stuff, but every weekend I crave a kind of freedom that feels like escape from adulthood. It's hard to put into words without sounding ridiculous, but there’s this kink, yes, a kink, that came out of nowhere recently. Every time we go out or meet friends, it feels like an act I have to perform, while on Sundays, I find myself wanting to be taken care of in a way that's... well, let's just say it's the opposite of what society expects from someone my age (18+). It’s scary and exciting at the same time. I don’t know if anyone else out there understands this, but am I alone with these thoughts? Am I crazy for wanting to leave adulthood behind every now and then in a way that feels both naughty and safe? What do you think?