..Conflicted Desires..

I never thought I'd be here, writing about something so... different. Recently, while watching an adult film with my partner, I found myself getting turned on by the idea of being spanked and disciplined like a naughty child. It's bizarre because I've always been confident in my sexuality but now there's this new side to me that I can barely understand... Am I just exploring or is there something deeper going on? Should I talk about this with someone, maybe a therapist? Is it normal to feel this way at 19?...