A Nurse's Secret Little Space Confession

I've always been fascinated by the dynamics of care and nurture, both professionally as a nurse and in my personal life. It began innocently enough; I started dressing up in scrubs for roleplay sessions with my partner to explore feelings of being cared for and protected. Over time, however, I found myself drawn more deeply into an adult DDLG dynamic where I embraced the little space, a place of vulnerability and innocence within a relationship that is anything but simple. We began our journey as equals in age and experience, deciding one day to explore deeper levels of trust and surrender. My partner took on the role of caregiver while I adopted the persona of her little boy, seeking guidance and comfort in ways both familiar and novel. Our sessions are elaborate affairs, filled with playful challenges that test my boundaries and deepen our bond. One evening, after a particularly demanding day at work, I arrived home feeling drained yet eager to delve into this world we'd created. We set up the space, turning it into a haven where the roles were clear but never oppressive. That night, we navigated through some of my deepest fears about aging and losing independence, topics that are heavy in daily life as a healthcare professional. It was liberating to lay these concerns out in a safe space. The session ended with us sharing our feelings openly, a rarity for both of us outside this setting, and it felt like we were truly seeing each other through different eyes. But here's the crux: does stepping into this role, as an adult embracing vulnerability, take away from my professional integrity? I worry about blurring lines between care and play, especially when these themes can be so raw for someone in a caretaking profession. So, am I the asshole for finding solace and pleasure in this dynamic that touches on some of life's most poignant moments? What do you think, can one embrace their little without compromising their adult responsibilities?