feeling lost

i just got divorced and stumbled into this little thing as a way to cope. my dad was strict but fair growing up so i always thought i'd be the same kind of parent. now i'm playing this game where i act like his kid again, asking permission for everything and getting in trouble when i mess up. it's weird but also kinda nice having someone make decisions for a change. i guess i just needed to talk about how alone i feel even with my freedom.