Confused Yet Hooked

I've been feeling really confused lately, but there's this one thing that makes my heart race and my skin tingle. I went to a kink event last weekend with some friends, just to see what it was all about. One of the couples demonstrated something called light bondage and mild spanking. It looked intense, but in an exciting way. When they finished, I felt this surge inside me, like everything clicked into place. I want more of that feeling, but I don't know why or how. I'm not even sure what to call it. It's all very confusing, yet incredibly enticing. Tonight, I couldn't resist myself anymore and started experimenting with a few toys on my own. The sensations were overwhelming, both pleasurable and a bit frightening. I'm scared of where this is leading me but can't help feeling drawn in deeper. Maybe understanding will come over time.