Just Kinky Nights in Uniform Can't Fix

Lately, every time my husband comes home from his deployment, we try to reconnect through kink. It's not just sex, we explore new roles and limits each time. Tonight, I dressed up as a submissive soldier for him, imagining following orders again after so much loneliness. But no matter how hard I try to please him or myself, there's this constant sadness that lingers. The uniformed figures around me feel like shadows of the past we can't recapture. Even our intimate play feels hollow compared to the real thing he misses and endures every day.