Working Nights Alone

I work nights at a warehouse, surrounded by silence and my own thoughts. Lately, I've been struggling with something that's eating away at me - this odd fantasy of being punished for not living up to some imaginary standards. It's strange because it never feels like an escape or relief; instead, it brings on feelings of sadness and loneliness. The idea of someone taking control, giving me orders that push my limits, has become a bit obsessive. I've only recently acknowledged this to myself, but the thoughts keep coming back stronger each night as I work alone in the dark. Is anyone else out there who feels like this is something more than just a passing fantasy?