figuring it out

recently got divorced and i've been playing around with a switch dynamic as a way to process all this change. sometimes i feel like the little one needing care, which is odd but kinda comforting. other times i enjoy taking on that caregiver role for someone else, finding myself in a protector mode that's pretty new but strangely familiar. not sure if it's about control or vulnerability or both, still figuring out why this feels right now. i just know it's helping me navigate this huge transition.