...Sometimes I Just Can't Follow Rules...

I've been struggling with this for a while now, but only recently have I admitted it to myself. You see, ever since I started exploring Dominant/submissive dynamics in my personal life a few months ago, there's something about this entire world that fascinates me and yet terrifies me at the same time... It's funny how just one small slip-up can make you realize how much you've changed inside, right? Well, last week, I decided to indulge in some chocolate after having promised myself (and my partner) not to eat it for a few more days. A little rebellion never hurt anyone, did it? ...But then again, sometimes these tiny rebellions are just a sign that something deeper is going on. It's as if the more I explore this side of me... the less control I feel I have over myself or my actions. But maybe that's okay too... Maybe letting go and embracing this new part of myself is exactly what I needed all along. Sometimes, breaking even small rules feels like a monumental act of defiance in the DDLG world... And sometimes, feeling guilty about it afterwards is just another way of acknowledging how much you've grown since you first dared to step into this space...