Just A Bit Kinky?

I've been married for almost two decades now and we've had a good thing going. But lately...lately I found myself drawn to something a bit more than just the usual stuff. You know, after the kids moved out, it was like our intimacy kind of went into cruise control. We still loved each other deeply, but there were times when I'd think about doing something different, something that could really wake up those sleepy feelings. I'm not sure how to say this...but we started to explore some kink stuff together. Oh, don't get me wrong, it wasn't anything too extreme or dangerous, nothing like you might see on the internet, but there were things I wanted to try, things that made me feel a little bit naughty but also very close to my wife. Like...we'd have these times where one of us would play a role and let the other be in charge. It wasn't about dominating or submitting for real, more like playing pretend. And we did some bondage stuff too, nothing heavy, just enough to feel restricted, you know? And you know what? It was really eye-opening how much better it made us connect again. The shame I felt...I mean, there's still this part of me that worries about being judged by others if they knew. But here we are, married adults with a mature relationship and a history together, why not spice things up if it's what makes both of us happy? Anyway, just wanted to put it out there for anyone else who might be feeling the same way...that you're not alone.