My Secret Little Space Night

So I started going to this kink club thing at an adults-only lounge near my bar a couple weeks back. It was just for fun, but one night there's this older guy, let's call him Tom, and he sees me. We've talked before, usually about work or the weather or something boring like that. But tonight, Tom pulls me aside after closing time and asks if I'm interested in...I don't know how to put it nicely, so I'll just say it: age play stuff. He told me he liked the way I act sometimes - like a bit naive, curious maybe. I felt kinda silly and embarrassed saying yes that night but then we went into his car after everyone else left. It was dark inside and I could see myself in the rearview mirror as Tom started to change my demeanor from bartender to...what he called 'his little space'. I kept thinking, 'how am I going to explain this to anyone?' but when Tom put on that authoritative voice, it felt weirdly soothing. We agreed beforehand that we'd stick with just playing and talking - no touching or anything physical like that. So the next night at the club, I did what he asked me to: acted shy, answered his questions sweetly. And it was...weird but not bad. I went back a few more times, figuring out how to switch from work mode to this other persona - it's kinda addictive, but also scary. It's not like there's any way anyone would ever find out about it unless I tell them or something goes wrong, right? But it feels too secret and private for me to even mention to my closest friends let alone post about here on the internet. So yeah, that's kind of where I'm at with this. Just figuring stuff out bit by bit - if anyone else has ever felt confused but kinda intrigued by a scene like this, maybe you'll understand how it feels.