It's Hard to Admit This...

I never thought I'd be confessing something like this. I've always seen myself as a traditional wife and mother, but lately, there's been this deep desire growing within me that feels so out of place. It all started when my partner began expressing an interest in DDLG dynamics, the idea of him being my little boy seeking guidance and care from someone older and wiser like me. At first, I was shocked; it felt wrong to consider anything but traditional roles. But over time, I found myself intrigued by the idea of nurturing and protecting a vulnerable side of him that he couldn't show anyone else. We took small steps into role-playing as parent and child, which turned out to be incredibly intimate and emotionally fulfilling for both of us. It's so confusing because while I love taking care of my real children in our daily life, this grown-up age-play is something entirely different, it stirs feelings and desires that are hard to reconcile with my sense of self. I'm not sure if anyone else has experienced similar struggles or if there's a way to embrace these feelings without losing sight of who I am as a mother and partner. Am I the only one feeling this kind of conflict?