Reflection on Submissive Urge

As an academic nearing my sixties, I've recently found myself drawn to scenes where I take on a youthful submissive role. During one intense session last week, I explored this dynamic with a partner decades younger than me. We engaged in playful yet firm discipline that left me feeling both vulnerable and exhilarated. Why does stepping into the mindset of an eager learner from my past appeal so much?