Confession of Hidden Desires

I've been going through quite the emotional whirlwind ever since my divorce a few months back. I thought it was just missing the familiarity and comfort that comes with being in a relationship, but then one night, after too many glasses of wine, I stumbled upon something hidden deep inside me, a longing for submission and discipline, something completely foreign yet oddly comforting. It's been weeks since that discovery, and while no one else knows about it (not even my therapist), the feelings have only grown stronger. There's this voice in my head saying 'You're not alone,' but I fear pushing too far into what feels like uncharted territory. Confessing here feels safer than trying to explain to anyone else what's going on inside me.