A Small Break in Discipline...

I'm just so tired sometimes, you know? Being Mommy is hard work, it's not all giggles and tickles. It’s about being strong for someone else who needs you to be the adult... The other day, I was feeling really down and worn out. He had been pushing me to start his lessons earlier than usual because he felt like a kid again, needed that sense of routine and guidance after work... but honestly, it's draining on top of my own responsibilities... So when the timer went off for our study time, I just couldn't bring myself to go through with it. Instead, I slipped into bed early and read until I fell asleep... It felt wrong though... like letting him down even in such a small way... The next morning, he was disappointed but tried not to show it, saying things would be fine for tomorrow. But that guilt... sitting there so heavy, reminding me I let him down in the smallest of ways... And now, every time I look at my watch, I see how much I failed... It’s hard to keep up Mommy's perfect act all the time.