breaking a small rule

Anonymous Snuggly Sprite #547 · General Confessions

so i was at work yesterday and my partner left me instructions to not eat any of the candy that our patients sometimes bring us. she knows how much i love chocolate and wanted me to be mindful of it. anyway, it's been a rough week and by lunch time today, i just couldn't resist. there was this one box of peanut butter cups that had been sitting on my desk for days now. the temptation was too much so while i was alone in the office during a lull, i grabbed them and ate two before putting everything back like nothing happened. it's silly but im really feeling guilty about it. i know its not a big deal and shes not going to find out anytime soon but i just cant shake this weird feeling of breaking her trust even over such a small thing. she never enforces rules strictly anyway, so its not like this was something i should feel bad for or anything. still though, the more i think about it, the worse i feel. im hoping time will help me get over it but right now it just feels heavy on my mind.