figuring it out

i care for this girl she calls me carer not daddy or anything like that but i enjoy being in charge of her stuff and sometimes we do little space where shes the kid and i look after her its weird because usually im so independent now i kinda like having someone else depend on me but also it feels so odd to be acting out these roles like im second guessing myself why do i get off on this is it just a power thing or something deeper like i dunno sometimes we play with school rules and she has to ask permission for things which honestly makes my day feel better idk