Feeling Out of Place

I’m a nurse in my 30s who’s always been a bit of a switch when it comes to kink. Lately, I’ve found myself really drawn to playing little and even more so taking on the caregiver role. It feels like an escape from reality, where I can let go and be vulnerable without fear of judgment. This weekend, I indulged in both sides, first being taken care of with strict discipline and then, hours later, caring for my partner with a nurturing touch that felt oddly therapeutic. Am I the only one who experiences this kind of oscillation between roles? Is it normal to crave such contrasting dynamics so intensely?