Why Do I Enjoy This So Much?

So, here's a thing that's been happening recently and it's driving me nuts trying to figure out why. I'm 23 years old and I've never really felt this way before. It started when my partner suggested we explore some kinkier activities in our relationship. Initially, I was hesitant, I mean, what if I don't like it? But the more she talked about her ideas, the more intrigued I became. We ended up trying out a roleplay where I acted as an eager beginner being taught by my partner who took on a teacher's role. Now, here’s the weird part: in these sessions, there was this moment when I'd feel like all resistance just melts away and I'm completely absorbed in what we're doing. It feels empowering yet oddly submissive at the same time. I've been trying to rationalize it ever since. Maybe it's because of control, having a clear hierarchy in our dynamic helps us both relax and enjoy ourselves more. But there are days when I worry that it’s not just roleplay anymore; sometimes, even outside these sessions, I catch myself wanting her to lead me through decisions or plans. This might sound like something you wouldn't expect from someone my age, still figuring out life and what they want. So now comes the real question: is this normal for a relationship dynamic to evolve into something more structured with roles like teacher-student in a consensual, adult setting? Should I be concerned that I enjoy these dynamics so much or even crave them outside of playtime? I know there's no one-size-fits-all answer here. But hearing from others who might have similar experiences could really help me understand if this is just another aspect of growth in a relationship or something more that needs to be addressed. Am I the asshole for enjoying these dynamics so much? Or are we both on track with our kink exploration and personal development?