Confused About Littling Today

I've been feeling really mixed about this little thing today. I know it's just a game and nothing serious but sometimes when my partner plays big daddy, it feels so real. It's like all my adult defenses drop away and suddenly I’m completely dependent on him for everything, even the smallest decisions. Lately we’ve been exploring more intense scenes that push those boundaries further than ever before, like pretending I can't tie my own shoelaces or read a menu at dinner without help because I'm just too little to manage it all alone. It's hard to reconcile that with the fact I’m fully responsible for my kids back in the real world. In our playroom, he’s got me sitting on his lap wearing pjs and sucking a pacifier, which makes me feel like I’ve never been so vulnerable and childish in my life. But it also feels strangely comforting to be taken care of this way. Is there anyone else out there who gets how confusing this all can be?