Just Thinking Out Loud

I’m a grad student who plays both sides, little one and caregiver too. Not sure why exactly. Maybe it’s the control? Feeling small, but also taking care of someone else? Or is it just the sexiness of pretending? Sometimes I feel like giving up all responsibility to my Dom, letting him take care of me completely. Other times, I’m nurturing another, making them feel safe and loved. It’s confusing, really. One moment I want to be protected, the next I crave protecting someone else. What does it mean? I guess I’ll keep exploring until I find out.