dad stuff

so yeah im this guy recently divorced after 10 years of marriage. been playing daddy for a while now but with my ex we never really got to that part of it, you know? i mean she liked the idea but like... not really into it or something. anyway, i always felt like there was more i wanted to explore and try out as a daddy, but she wasn't into it enough so whatever. then comes along this chick who is all about the daddy stuff, just dropped right in my lap one day practically begging me to be her dad. turns out we have mutual friends and she asked them to set us up because she really wanted some of that daddy energy in her life. at first i thought maybe its just another one trying to get over on a divorce, but then we start talking and yeah there is definitely something real here. its been amazing, honestly. never felt so... alive? empowered? whatever. finally getting to try out all this daddy stuff with someone who actually wants it. i can tell her what she should be doing and where her limits are and its not just empty words anymore, its real connection between us built around our shared kink. but man the guilt still lingers, you know? sure we were divorced for a while now but its only been like 3 months since it all ended officially. i feel weird taking on this role so soon after my ex was technically still part of my life. feels kinda disloyal even though logically i know she's not gonna be around forever. and yeah, i had a lot invested emotionally with her too for 10 years so the idea of moving on so quick just feels off sometimes. but im trying to focus on me now and what makes me happy. this new lady is definitely making my world brighter in a way my ex never did or could have. so yeah, its complicated but i think i am doing right by myself here.