...My Little Secret...

So yeah, I'm this nurse in my thirties who's always been pretty good at keeping to myself. But lately, I've found myself really getting into the kink scene... it’s like a secret part of me that no one knows about. I've even started playing both sides, which is kind of wild because it was never something I thought would appeal to me. Anyway, so there's this guy who's been my Dom for a while now. We met online and everything went smooth... or at least I think it did until recently. So, we were in this little space together the other day... yeah, he wanted me to be his little for a scene. And let me tell you, it was intense, all this talk of being obedient and following orders... It’s funny how quickly I got into character once he started guiding me through it. He gave me tasks that were really cute but also challenging at the same time... like fetching things around his house with a little apron on. And we had one or two more... let's say 'playful' activities in there too, which was just as fun and naughty. But here’s where it gets tricky: after we finished up, he asked me how I felt about being that little again later. And the truth is, a part of me really wants to do it again. It sounds weird, right? But I kind of liked feeling cared for... like I was his special little guy and no one else's business. So now here’s where I'm at: should I go ahead with it or let him know that maybe this isn't such a good idea after all? Like, does it even matter if we both want to play in these roles? It’s confusing because usually I’m pretty set on my boundaries and what feels right for me... but now everything seems up for grabs. Anyway, just thinking out loud here... probably gonna have to sort through this mess sometime soon. Until then, I guess I'll keep it a secret and figure things out on my own time...