Law School and My Secret Nighttime Fantasies

I've been a bit preoccupied with my classes this semester, but there's something else on my mind that I need to get off my chest. It feels like a weight lifting when I finally admit it to myself, I've always had these...well, let's call them fantasies about being disciplined by someone older and wiser. Not in a punishing way, but more like guidance and instruction in a way that feels protective and loving at the same time. I know this probably sounds strange, but here's where it gets even stranger, I've started acting on these thoughts. It all happened last month when I was studying really late one night for my torts class. I had just finished reading about different types of liability and couldn't sleep because my mind kept wandering back to these fantasies. Anyway, I ended up meeting someone online who understood what I wanted. At first, it felt like role-playing a mentor-student relationship over the phone, but then we agreed to meet in person. It was incredible, everything felt so intense and meaningful, even though we didn't really go into explicit details about our fantasies. And now here I am, still a bit flustered by how real it all seemed. But what's even more surprising is that after experiencing this once, my mind keeps coming back to wanting more of those moments where someone guides me through things with an authority and care that seems so natural. It doesn't fit neatly into any category, but there you go, just needed to share.