My Secret Nighttime Rituals

I've been a high school teacher for over a decade, always seen as the strict and professional one. But lately, I’ve found myself slipping into this private world where role-playing with strangers online has become an escape. It's not something I’m proud of or even fully understand, it’s like an outlet for stress, mixed with my own unresolved desires from years ago. The vulnerability scares me but also sets me free in a way nothing else ever has. Am I just lonely? Is this normal to seek out such intense anonymity and control play?