Just Trying to Cope

I'm a Mommy recently divorced after years of marriage. We had a strict DDLG dynamic but things fell apart when he wanted more freedom and I couldn't let go. Now, I spend my nights alone playing with dolls in my adult toy store fantasies - it's the only way I can feel close to him anymore. The toys look like us, dressed up as us were during our best times together. Is this normal? Do you think therapy would help me see past these unhealthy patterns?