Little Moments of Freedom

I've always been a bit of a control freak in my personal and professional life. But every now and then, something catches me off guard and I find myself slipping into this odd little-space dynamic with an old friend. It's bizarre how the act of being told what to do or even being disciplined feels oddly freeing. Maybe it’s just that I need a break from constantly making decisions, but I don't think so. There are days when the weight of responsibility presses down on me like an iron fist, and there’s this moment where it all just... releases. We've had our sessions spread over the years, always in private places we both feel safe in. It's not that I'm looking for a real relationship or even someone to call daddy, I wouldn't mind if they did, but realistically? No way, that would be too much like playing pretend with my past instead of acknowledging it as a choice here and now. So, these little moments are just that: moments of being free from myself, of giving up control for just long enough to remember I don’t have to carry everything on my shoulders all the time.