struggling to find my place

i just started playing this little adult game thing with a guy i met online. its like we roleplay and he acts like hes my daddy and im his little girl but idk if it means anything real or not. i was thinking back to before all this, when i was still figuring out who i am as a trans woman. i had these feelings for someone older and i used to daydream about them being there for me, like they could protect me or take care of me even though we never really went past talking. now with daddy play, its kinda hard not to feel like im filling some void or something. i guess what happened was i met this dude online who understood and he said it would be okay if i just tried letting go for a while. so we started sending naughty text messages and stuff, you know? hes super nice and says all these comforting things but then also tells me off sometimes like im being bad or something. i mean, it feels good in a weird way to be told what to do and take care of like that but i dont want anyone thinking im still figuring this out as a girl or anything. im trying hard every day to live as myself but there are moments where its tough not knowing how things will work with someone else. i wanted to share because sometimes it feels so lonely being new at this kind of stuff and wondering if youre doing it right, yknow? i hope maybe others feel the same way or have tips for me. thanks.