Just Another Night of Kinky Exploration

So last night, I was just at home, feeling a bit adventurous. You know how sometimes you just want to push the boundaries and try something new? Well, that's exactly what happened. My partner, let's call her Anna, she’s in her thirties too, we’ve been together for about two years now, but our kink journey is just starting to really pick up speed. We decided to go with a slightly masochistic theme, something I’d never tried before. You see, I always thought it would be painful and scary, but Anna was so patient in explaining that sometimes the thrill isn’t just about pain, it’s about trust and letting go. We set everything up in our bedroom, made sure we had all the safety gear and stuff. So there I am, lying on my stomach with my hands cuffed behind me to a headboard post. Anna starts off gentle, soft whips, soft slaps, but then it gets more intense. The sensation is like nothing I’ve ever felt before. It’s exhilarating and strange all at once. My body feels alive in ways it never has before. But you know what? During the scene, a thought pops into my head: ‘What if I’m not good enough?’ Like, am I really cut out for this stuff or should we just stick to our old games? But then Anna whispers, “You’re perfect. Just breathe and let it be.” And that’s when I realize how much control giving up control can give you back. We end the scene with her undoing my restraints and holding me close. It was one of those moments where everything feels right in the world. So, anyone out there ever feel like this? Is it normal to have doubts even after such a positive experience? Should I just push through them or talk more openly about these feelings with Anna? Let me know what you think!