little stuff

i know i shouldnt talk about this but its been eating me up lately. i met this guy online who was into ddlg kinda stuff and we started talking a lot, then one night he suggested playing a little game over the phone. i got so excited and nervous all at once. we did it for real that night, him as my caregiver and me acting like a little kid needing to be put in time out and stuff...it felt weird but kinda amazing too. im scared i might wanna do more of this kind of thing with others. i know its not normal but its been on my mind nonstop.