Analyzing My Kink

I've been exploring this dynamic with my partner for a while now, and it's interesting how analytical I can be about something that feels so primal. We started as consenting adults choosing roles, but there’s this part of me that enjoys feeling like I’m guiding him through something he needs, yet craves the control in return. It’s strange to think about the psychology behind it, am I drawn to nurturing because I feel inadequate in other areas? Or is there some unresolved childhood issue playing a role here? At times, it feels so natural and right, but then moments like these make me question everything.